The date and time show 14 June 2025 at 12:55 AM.
It was at this exact moment I had an epiphany. “Just do it.”
Write.
Post something.
Finally.
I’ve had this blog since, what? 2019? That’s more than six years ago. But guess what? I never posted anything. Not even one entry. It became an abandoned child project. Set up, then ditinggalkan macam tu je.
But enough about the past.
Now it’s 2025.
It’s June.
It’s mid-year already!
And man… time flies so freaking fast. I’m approaching 40. (menjerit dalam hati)
Jujur cakap, apa yang aku dah capai dalam hidup ni? All I can think of is how I just go with the flow… floating aimlessly, sampai rasa macam stranded in the middle of nowhere. Lost. Searching for the true meaning of living.
30 minutes before I opened this blog, I was scrolling through old messages on Telegram. It was from the BRC group. The first message I read was dated December 2023. Lama gila aku tak buka. So I scrolled and read one by one. Then I saw a message that hit me right in the heart.
“Apa makna dan tujuan hidup?”What is the meaning and purpose of life?
That moment, I swear I heard a soft voice. It was from within.
“Faz, you’ve been through so much for years. But look at you now, you survived. You did your best… for others. But not for yourself. It’s time. Take the blue pill. Reprogram your life. You don’t need to announce it to the world. Just you… and the Almighty. That’s enough.”
I paused. Let the words sink in.
I put down my phone, woke up my “sleeping” laptop, and without thinking much, opened my browser and logged in to this blog. And here I am ~ awake, aware, finally connecting the dots. Finding the breadcrumbs that might just lead me to the answers I’ve been seeking.
Do I have all the answers now?
No.
But I know where to look. I know what matters. And I know Who holds the answers.
Alhamdulillah.
Whatever decisions I make from now on — right or wrong, good or bad — I will face them. I’ll give it my all and leave the rest to Him. Because at the end of the day, I put my faith in the One who knows best.
So yeah… this might just be a random rant.
Tapi aku rasa macam otak aku dah penuh sangat, and I need to channel these thoughts somewhere. Kalau tak, it’ll just stay in my head like a cache file, hogging all the space that could be used for something more meaningful.
Thank you for reading — if anyone is reading. 😅
Till the next post, I’ll try to share something more valuable.
Maybe.
InsyaAllah.
Bye~ 👋